Have you ever waken up one day and felt like you are living in the same situation and habit? Have you ever felt like your life is not that excited anymore and you want to do something to break it? And you felt like you have been living in fears about something you cannot figure out that what is it?

That’s what happen to me and it has been like this for year. Until I hit my B-day and I felt like I needed to do something new, even though it might not be a big thing for someone else but it is a radical symbol for me. So I got tattoos.

I have to say I always want to have tattoos like I always want to have a nipple ring. I think both of them are hot. Even though I am always a chicken when it comes to pain, I finally did both. The first time when I did the nipple piercing, it took me just one of my good friend’s dare. The same thing happens to me with the tattoos. I saw a tattoo of my friend who is visiting from the US and I liked it, so I told him I wish I had a gut to do it. He said I could do it and dragged me to the MBK.

It is one of my personalities, I guess. When I want something, I cannot take my mind out of it until I know if I can have it or not, if I know I can have it, I will do it but if not so that I will move on.

So the next day, I called my friend and we all went to the tattoo store together.

I chose five Chinese characters (Happiness, True Love, Harmony, Prosperity and Luck respectively) on my upper back and the Sagittarius sign on my upper right chest. I could not believe that I was so calm even though it was pretty painful in particular near the bone but it was bearable. I was still able to talk to my friends like normal.

When it’s done, I was so surprised that the pain was not that bad. I always love to do something to the extreme. So I asked my lesbian tattoo maker did another one on my chest.

It took me almost 2 hours for the whole thing but I felt so liberate after.

For me making tattoos is like a symbol of breaking my own fears and old habit. Breaking my own fear because I always allow my fear to stop me from doing things I always want to do and imagine that it is bigger than I can overcome. Breaking my old habit because I feel like I have been living in my old self-built comfort zone for a long time and I have lost my sense of adventure and taking risk. Like making tattoos, I always believe it’s not for me and I will never be able to take the pain, but I did.

Trying to break through my old guards, this is might be a good gesture and I feel good about it already

Yep Yep, life is SO grand!!!